Healing Hurts

I didn't love the anticipation waiting for my surgery to take my tonsils out, but it now has come and gone (but still lingering through the healing of coarse). It was originally suppose to be October 5. Then the office called saying my doctor was going out of town. It was changed to October 16. When that day came i called to get the details for my preparation but there had been a mistake. I was on the schedule as an office visit. I was rescheduled once again. I was a bit frustrated but very grateful that the secretary was able to get me in for Friday of that same week.

Andy took Friday off work and my mom came to watch Charlie. We left at 6:30 am. During the car ride Andy tried to calm my nerves by playing Mozart and telling me to think it was late at night (because it was dark outside) and we were just going to a hotel so i could sleep. That's all no worries. He was nice to help me not think about it. Because what gives me the most anxiety is wondering what they are going to do to me while i am sleeping.

We got there, filled out paperwork, got me prepped. The nurse was very nice. As the anesthesiologist and other nurse  came in to take me to the surgery room the anxiety kicked in a bit more. My knees and elbows started tingling, going numb. Then i couldn't help the tears as they pulled me away and i said goodbye to Andy. Everyone was so kind trying to help me feel calm. They told me over and over, "don't worry this is the worst part". I said several silent prayers and that's what really got me through. They had me scoot myself onto the surgery table. A nurse put a pillow under my knees. The anesthesiologist told me he got the anesthesia going. He told me it would hurt a bit and then i would be off to dream land. I closed me eyes and felt that intense feeling overcome me and that's the last thing i remember.

It felt like no time had passed when i woke up. Andy walked in and sat down next to me. He spoke with the nurse. I felt a huge burden lifted off of me knowing it was done. Andy videoed me in hopes he would get me saying or doing something silly. I disappointed him by being very normal. Slow but normal. I did feel like my nose was abnormally itching. You'll notice in this video.

Now that its over, its healing time, which is quite uncomfortable. Its painful to swallow, talk, and eat soft food. Its uncomfortable, but I don't mind too much. I am kind of enjoying laying in bed and taking it easy. I haven't been able to be this lazy since before Charlie was born so i am trying to enjoy it. 

Being in pain isn't fun. As i was thinking about it i realized these big nasty tonsils were no good so they were cut off! It was a good thing, but the healing still hurts. It makes me think of sin. The Savior tells us that if our hand or foot offends thee, cut it off. When we repent it is good but it will still hurt. It hurts to change our bad habits. Its hard to change things about ourselves. Especially when in today's world they say "its not that bad." My main thing right now is cracking down on TV shows and movies. Its usually a good show until that one tiny inappropriate part sneaks in. Its hard but i find i feel better and cleaner by staying away from shows that are not uplifting. 

Anyway, one day down. Many more to go! They say its a two week recovery. Two weeks until i can eat food again. I've been craving all sorts of stuff like: french toast, eggs, cereal, sandwiches, burritos, pizza...pretty much all food. I do enjoy smoothies, slushies, popsicles, and chicken broth. And for those things i am grateful!

Andy is being a good Dad. Charlie is being a good baby. I love them. I am grateful they have been good. It makes it easier on me.